Friday, 29 August 2008
Last time I wrote anything here, I was bemoaning how much I dislike Fridays, and here we are again. I'm going to think positive this week though, because last time, it was as if I'd given myself permission to slacken off and although it wasn't a massive disaster, I definitely let go of the reins a bit.
This, coupled with the scales playing silly buggers meant that I really had no idea where I was weight-wise come Monday. I have been getting all sorts of silly readings whereby the scales seemed to be adding and losing pounds every five minutes. I am obviously going to have to invest in some new, more reliable ones. My hubby is rather overweight and I'm now beginning to suspect that he's been leaping on them and has destroyed the mechanism!!
In the mean time, I've taken some measurements and if I can't get the scales to say anything sensible, I'll need to start working from these instead. Clothes have certainly been more comfortable and some even look okay too. No reason to go shopping just yet...nothing is falling off me, but at least I don't feel quite so trussed up anymore.
Now fitting in a much more flattering manner is....
White, wide legged linen trousers, size 18 (yes, I've got two pairs of these as well as the brown ones!)
Bright orange cotton camisole, size 16
Purple ruffly cardigan, size 16
Purple earrings, orange necklace, orange bangle
Bare feet just now....will have to sort out shoes later.
Friday, 22 August 2008
If the scale-reading was good on Monday morning, that high carries you through Tuesday and most of Wednesday. Thursday can sometimes be a little tough....it's the diet equivalent of "hump day" at work where you are half-way there. Friday feels like a long way away from the success of Monday and yet the last two days of the week are still stretching out before you. It's my "dip" day. If there's one time of the week when I'm likely to career wildly off-plan, it's today! So with that in mind, I've lined up eight million jobs to do which will hopefully keep me physically occupied and away from the fridge!
The next big thing for me to tackle is exercise. I'm not good at it. I don't really enjoy getting all hot and sweaty, I dislike swimming pools and the only activity that I really relish (oh well alright, there's two, but no, not that one) has had to be severely restricted due to a foot injury. Whereas I used to be able to walk five or six miles without thinking about it, the mile-and-a-bit walk to to school and back yesterday had me popping ibuprofen again. Someone suggested dancing as a possible alternative, but given that I have all the natural rhythm of a rhino in a plastercast I think that's probably a no. It looks like I'm going to have to stick to cycling nowhere for a bit!
Today I'm wearing:
White linen trousers, size 18.
White baggy blouse, size 18.
Beige cardian, size 14
Silver star earrings, silver beaded necklace, chunky silver ring, selection of bangles.
Diesel Fuel for Life perfume
Wednesday, 20 August 2008
Tuesday, 19 August 2008
Thursday, 14 August 2008
Wednesday, 13 August 2008
So now, as well as having a bum that feels like someones been making me sit on red hot pokers, I also have a lovely three-lane gash down one leg, while the other, already knee-creakingly dodgy leg feels like it could fall off any second. My left tit is black and red with bruising - that's going to look attractive when it turns yellow and green - and it seems that I might have been walloped one in the jaw by Princess Panic.
Tuesday, 12 August 2008
Oh, and now that I'm duly showered and recovered, I'm wearing:
Brown linen trousers (not the same pair - I own three the same. This is what happens when you get fat. You find something that looks okayish and buy three of them to save thinking too hard) Size 18. Definitely more comfortable around the waist.
Pale green, coffee brown, cream and pink blouse with a 1950s curtain pattern Size 16
Some really rather stunning jewellery from Avon but which I could easily pretend was from Pilgrim.
Monday, 11 August 2008
Needless to say, I'm delighted with this result, but of course, it's only the first 8lbs from a total of more than 60 that I need to lose. That posh size 8 dress in my wardrobe still aint fitting! Still, it's a good start and has given me just the impetus I need to carry on. I have also put £8 in a jar. That dress needs new shoes :-)
Continuing with the positive note...it finally stopped raining long enough for my tent to dry out. My lovely new Iowa is packed back in its bag ready to be dragged out again at the weekend. I must start work on a menu-plan for the camping trip that will keep the scales happy next Monday and not leave me starving. All to be cooked in one pot. Mmmmmmm.
Today I'm wearing:
Wide legged jeans, size 16
Burnt orange vest top size 16
Purple fluffy cardigan size 16
Purple and silver dangly earrings, large orange glass pendant, chunky copper bangle
Brown high heeled leather ankle boots.
Lippy, mascara and some rather devine face illuminator stuff from Virgin Vie.
13 Stone 8.75lbs. (-8lbs)
Sunday, 10 August 2008
I'm such a saddo. I woke up this morning all excited and for a minute or two, couldn't work out why. And then I realised....one more day till the end of the first week of my diet. One more day to get the official reading on how much I've lost this week. So of course, I hopped on the scales to see what they say today, one day before the official weigh-in day. I really wish I hadn't because tomorrow is now bound to be a disappointment; either I'll be the same as today, which is good, but not that exciting, or I'll have gained three pounds because the scales are crap. It's tempting to eat nothing all day to try and make sure that the scales give me a good result tomorrow but I won't because that way madness lies.
On the plus side, the sun has returned to grace us. If it would just stay like this, I could take my tent down from the garden ready to go camping proper at the weekend.
Must work out how to do "diet" camping food. I'm not sure sausages and beans for every meal is in the plan! In fact the list of things I "must do" today would fill several blogs and kill anyone reading from instant boredom.
Oh, and today I'm wearing:
Housework clothes. There's bathrooms to be scrubbed and sartorial elegance isn't really required. Later, if the sun stays sunny and the clouds stay away, I have a blue/green/lime/white floral A-line skirt (18) to wear with a white vest top, green cardigan and flipflops. Otherwise, jeans and a jumper.
Too late. That's rain I can hear. I'm sure I don't deserve this!!
Saturday, 9 August 2008
So far, I've made mushroom soup, processed two loads of laundry and rustled up lunch. I'm shattered. I have three half-read books on the go and a comfy chair calling my name. Unfortunately, kid in the middle has a party to go to on Monday and we have no pressie to take.
I ate a huuuuuuuuge breakfast this morning; three grilled tomatoes, a bucket of mushrooms, slice of toast and two grilled turkey rashers. I've just consumed an equally massive lunch of salad, beef, bread roll and diet yoghurt. Why am I dreaming of shortbread?
It has been one week since I last had an alcoholic drink. Stupidly, I'm almost afraid to have one now, in case I suddenly DID become an alcoholic and can't stop at one. Is that mad? Probably. I guess I just have to "think of all the calories"!!
Today I'm wearing:
Wide legged blue jeans - size 16. Comfier than the last time I wore them or is that just wishful thinking?
Bright orange "ethnic" blouse.
jangly clangy bangles
Big chunky gold beads
Tiger's eye earrings
No make up yet, but I'm planning a face mask after I've done the next lot of ironing so when my skin goes all red I'll no doubt need the full face.
Friday, 8 August 2008
Mum rang. I am concerned that she thinks me giving up work means I can spend every last minute with her. I would ignore the phone, but since we got the (totally tacky but I love it) Mickey Mouse phone, the kids have all started racing towards it as soon as the first "ting" rings out. It may get better once school starts again, but then she'll simply phone just before they leave. I'm going to have to start inventing friends and activities if I want to avoid her! Jeeze, the whole point of giving up work was to reduce the stress in my life, not simply change it.
Today I'm wearing.....
The same as yesterday only with clean undies and a clean top. Oh and a bit of makeup. Not much because I was interrupted by my daughter who had locked herself out of the house and I've never quite made it back upstairs. Actually, must go and investigate that funny beeping noise.
4.20pm and we're back from my mother's house. How's the diet going? Would I like some banana cake? A biscuit? Some shortbread. At least take the recipe. Anything at all? What is wrong with this woman? I lasted all of an hour before I had to make my excuses and leave.
Thursday, 7 August 2008
It's three years ago yesterday that my dad died. And it was the not really coping very well with that situation that has caused me to pile on the pounds. There was the whole guilt thing because I was on holiday in America when he had his first heart attack and didn't go home. Then there was the anger that nobody told me to go home. In fact they told me to stay put. And then there was the deep, deep sadness that I never got to see him again. Coupled with the horrifying realisation that much as I love my mother, I don't much like her, and dad and his expansive personality had managed to hide this fact from me for years. It hasn't been the best three years of my life. But at some point, things have to get better. And the only person who can make them better is me. So it's time to dig deep and find the better me. The me that isn't fat, verging on alcoholism and depressed. We (that's a royal we - I don't really hear the voices) want to see the happy, fun-lovin', up-for-anything me that is buried somewhere deep inside this mass of crap.
Do diet blogs usually consist of a list of food consumed? I don't think I'm going to do that. I can make myself feel guilty elsewhere. However, I think I'm going to do a daily list of what I'm wearing....let's see if it gets more glam as time goes on!!
Brown linen trews....size 18
White lacy vest top....size 16
Pink cotton cardigan....size 16
Beads, bangles and earrings .....any size you like. Aint jewellery great?
Brown leather wedge sandals - size 7
No makeup. This was a slob around the house kind of a day. I did however shave my legs and exfoliate my hands in an endeavour to look a bit less like a washerwoman.
Tis only two weeks till the kidlets go back to school. Two weeks till we have to have some kind of routine again. Will it be the making of me? Or send me loopy all over again? I wonder.